I thought I knew it all

I thought I had an understanding of love
Trust
loyalty
you know all the above

Until you're actually in the position
claim you love and there the one
but always fail to listen
want forgiveness but  it's done

Now Left reminiscing
but were so young how are we supposed to know
just turned legal
being locked down was not a goal

so when you attempted to get a hold
I was out somewhere drinking
which causes much too unfold
leaves you sitting there thinking

Is it all worth it ?
Suffering everyday
Trying hard to change for the better
but I was so stuck in my ways

Now I feel as if I'll regret every step I could have taken
but it was you exiting my life
that led to my awaken
fruit finally ripe

after so many strikes
thought I had you whipped
you wouldn't actually leave
but on my own lace I tripped
in my lies I believed

I thought I knew it all
now for you I search
I would climb, run and crawl
because without you is the worst


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take it slow
we were all given a paddle
but we can't all row
were all watered
but not all of us seem to grow

We all learned to read but not between the lines
we all learned to speak but not the truth
we all learned to take initiative but at different times
we all learned to walk but have on different shoes
no wonder why it's hard for us to all unite
to live together under peace
will be worst war we ever fight

Eliminate the criminals is a view that is far to keen
but within the good is bad
 not aware because not every side of a person is seen

Within the government someone who is in touch with humanity
is what is needed
instead of self interest and personal gain
 people would be better treated

Religion is contradicting
walked into the church for my sins to be forgiven
but the church is where the devil resonates
came up to me and asked me for an offering

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Free

I want to be productive

I want to learn more

I want to question

I want to want 

but I need not only to want 

but to do the want that I need

I don't exactly need a want

you can't need a want

because a need has been labelled as something that is necessary for survival

want is a desire usually of a materialistic

but what of knowledge ?

Knowledge is a necessity for survival, at least in this world

Those who lack knowledge are taken advantage , often in lower class

what determines if you are knowledgeable or not ? 

A degree ? Diploma ? 

Those two things you gained because you followed instructions. 

No creativity was used. 

You memorized and followed instructions to gain both of those things.

That is how people live on a daily basis following instructions in this society.

A structured society. you follow instructions of a structure society.

Then the structure society is conditioning you

If you're being conditioned , you're being controlled.

Controlled you are now disciplined. You obey all. 

Who do we obey ? 

The government ?

We obey people who are just like us but have a piece of paper that justifies that they know it all.

People controlling people when were supposed to be equal.

No one is above the law. The law was created by man. The man created the law for people to follow but feels that he is above it. The man, not just a man but men. 

were chess pieces being moved. not controlling our actions

Bye free will. 

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Temptation

Calling

Frustration

Ignoring

I've been thinking 

of A
or my  purpose

what was written

or a inquiry of something worthless 

Days come where I don't know

but the alchemist said

the universe conspires so I can achieve my personal legend

you know my one true goal

As I walk to do so 

I am continuously tested

but on this journey I walk 

the test result in me being  restless 

restless results in depression

depression results in no fucks given 

no fucks given results in absence of education but the narcotics are present

and then my brain cells go missing 

if the brain cells are missing that leads to them taking advantage

if advantage is taken that leads to rebellious acts of the savage 

if the savage is rebelling then Ivan pavlove theory is correct

acts of behaviour is based off of feelings and that is how we select

Selections are made other suggestions are ignored

Head was on straight but following rules in a structured society eventually was a bore

due to bore there was a crave for awakening 

decided to start questioning , temptations were breaking in 

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I thought the truth

Why don't I just admit it ?
because I don't want to lead people to thinking there's something more when there isn't
You thought this was permanent
when it was just a visit

People like to ignore truth
then they get hurt
you chose to value
something when it wasn't worth

the pain and tears that will soon come to be
and you say emotions is innate
but I believe in existentialism the world is how you perceive

Words don't have to hurt
but you allow them to affect you
how am I to protect
when your the one who makes the soul blues

Stop acting low were in the high end
where those dislike confrontation
because they rather gossip and pretend
Till I make my way with a realistic invasion

Now I'm the criminal because I decided to speak up
political discussions, white collar corruptions aren't supposed to be discussed
focus on fashion, wealth and multiple relations
with a possible outcome of an orgasm or a heartbreak in the making

never ending my thoughts on a good note
or when you read it seems unfinished
I don't end it in fear that within those it wont soak
having it read, wet and then dry the point of it all will be diminished

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Hope that all is forgiven
distracted by the stress
forgot my surroundings were living
not my personal objects

forgot that you were human
forgot that you feel
a flower that was blooming
but your petals I'd peel

Didn't even notice
darkness covered my heart
lashing out , anger turned me to the coldest
inner demons tearing me a part

Word and actions we regret
noticed when your about to depart
but there will always be respect
like there's always light found in the dark

There's that good in bad
there's that bad in good
there's that tough love that I have
that is truly misunderstood

There's that close your eyes and envision
Only way to survival is to ignore societal norms
and make your own decision

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I've yet to fall yet
but I lost my balance
Going as far as I can get
Always being challenged

What if I stop
What if what I worked for
was completely forgot
I know I could do more

Where's the alchemist
where are his signs
I want to leave and misfit
hope he'll come in time

Searching for treasure
Speak not of Gold
simply the answer
that remains unknown

I'll leave institution
free from surveillance
My own revolution

Sweet escape
sweet life
bad faith
white lies

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Stress Free

Side conversations taken place

Then leave them to the side

Abandoned or dismissing the fakes

Can open up your eyes

 

For every lost there is gain

Pray you receive better

Know it hurts at first

But relationships don’t last forever

Valuable lesson taught that are quite forgotten

Keep your ahead above the water

Or sink and rotten

Converse with your soul  

Make your own decision

Ignore opinions

Don’t entertain advice that is given

I won’t lie I get hurt and then try to learn

Fresh affiliations that I valued

That were quickly burned

For what cause?

I guess I’ll never know

Once you leave, then you’re left

No return I’ll show your ass the door

Prove them all wrong

They used you as a means to an end

To be entertained when bored

Those were not your real friends

But karma is a bitch

 wish nothing bad upon others

But you eat what you get dished

From backfire I pray you recover

Meditate and free your mind
lone with your soul
free from stress will come in no time

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Ended

Why argue
you're wasting the little time that we have together
I hardly see you
and that is proof that this won't last forever

Just when I believe
that there's a possibility
that we found a survival method

you ruin it all for me

with constant accusations
that derive from nowhere
hurtful words out of your mouth
along with cold stares

when you can simply admit
the harsh words and pre-assumptions
is an excuse to exit the relationship

So I  can make the move first
and say its over
want me to do your dirty work
how gutty of you

Were big kids now
let's try and be mature here
we could work it out
but you're all talk filled with fear


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Crossroad.

How do you manage to remain sane
How do you manage to act without thinking of what you will gain
How do you manage to prosper and not become vain
How do you manage to walk in the darkness but keep your faith

How do you do it
If no one has done it....

I'm afraid were at the crossroad
Choose your path
Throw your soul away for a payroll
Promise you'll eventually want it back

What will you do
is it worth it
know it's a struggle right now
but none of our lives are meant to be perfect

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puppets.

Am I attending university
so I can squire with those who crave knowledge
and  be considered an intellectual elite
So i can have a say on  how this world works
exert influence on policies based off our own interest and not the peoples
is doing the devil's work
democracy is simply just a lie
you vote for a representative of the party who's just like his opposition
who's simply just a puppet
but attending meetings with citizens acting like he can make a change or that he even listens
delivers the perfect speech to cover up their tracks
he doesn't care about the country but the tax dollars that is funding
that pay for his vacation so he can lay back
The one's that come to acknowledge
get assassinated
disgusted with the truth
towards good he gravitated
tries to warn the people
all hail j,f.k
though the warning was ignored by the blinded
good president who cared and didn't care about a brand like the one this present day

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