Everything feels.

Blue zone

Keep going

A wave hit me and I still didn't drown. 

Until next time

Father forgive them, for they know not what they do

until they feel blue,

see the red, and

wish they did otherwise instead.

Captured by their regrets

strangled by their thoughts

pinned down by a disorder

sent to a prison for rehabilitation

and some order.

Sent back into society

no job because of their criminal record

struggles to maintain sobriety

until their back in court

on the face of every news report.

Mother cries in the backroom

mouths" until the next time"

living in their environment

means doing nothing but crime 



Mother cries out



I tried to raise you better...

tried to keep you away

made you go to school

packed your lunch everyday.

Those thugs would hang around

begged you to stay away from that side of town

but you always went

getting into trouble

while I struggle to pay rent.

Oh, God help my child

he's too wild

his father is not here either

Stuck in jail

never helped with his child,

but wants me to post his bail

oh, God Oh God

what did I do to deserve this hell?



                                                                                                                                                          B. W

Young

I am a lot of things that I don't know the definition of.

Just doing it because

Your silence contains noise
mind is never asleep
meditate to reach altered states
thought you didn't like to get deep

Concentrating on your mental states
hope you get in control
freed from suffering
because your desires were taking a toll

Those readings from class hit you
just don't let the material leave you feeling meaningless
free from ignorance
but now you never experience bliss
all you needed was the gist

Do things for the right reason
in the right state of mind
not having enough knowledge of a practice
can lead to things you don't want to find

Do you believe there is no self?
People's beliefs aren't a trend
better yourself
but don't pretend
be you
because its you at the end

                                                                                                                                                     B.W                                                                                                                                                 

Years later and you still dig yourself into a hole without an escape plan.