Decisions...

I hate my thoughts
but my thoughts can make me rich
but I can't be bought
being owned for what I created is not an appealing pitch

Plus patience is the key right
creativity might leave my sight
if sold for the wrong purpose or price
but man  said money helps you get through life not being nice

But my conscience is still with  guilt
as if i'm committing a wrongdoing for showcasing what I as an individual built
I thank Jireh for giving me colors to create the art I drew
but why has the religion forbidden one with wings and label evil if they chose to  flew

I have to look pass in order to get passed
Man is free when not a slave to emotions , but  understands how to control them instead of having them masked.
I just hope i'll last
Produce something placed first
To God I pray and ask
that i'm able to avoid the  curse.


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Question

I lost my mind that says I am

What of me

If my existence i'm not aware of and don't understand

Oh God above me

where am I to find the answer
May I create my own path ,
Or is God the financer
who's given me a destiny that I may not want ,as I said this the priest in the confessional began to  laugh

Well what of free will
if the events that occur in my life lead to what is originally supposed to be
Can't we along with time  just be still
out of this prison  can we flee ?

Once you've left the prison the ultimate truth is discovered
In touch with you're soul then reincarnated depending on Karma
because you're wrong doings in life cannot be covered

I'm young and this bothers me
you have direct communication with God so they say, so Father talk to me
I don't mean to question the almighty
I'm thankful for everything but a lot who follow this religion aren't actually loyal to thee

I'm at the age where curiosity has peaked
when hypocritical things are displayed and i'm forced to conform
that's where the wise ones want answers and for that  they shall sought, and when found it will be leaked

No sugar coding
We are the elites who will be bleak
not the ones who attend church act holy on Sunday
then forget about their promises during the week


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Aware

You're legally considered an adult

Be somewhere at a certain age like told

or choose to revolt

what if one decided to do  the opposite

stand for the rest of your life 

because we always sit

The majority found  comfort within a zone that limits knowledge and individualism

Non -existent democracy , subjects of discipline , or religion all followed and believed in fear of criticism  

The only thing that should be feared is being another pawn unknowingly serving an unseen king

not knowing your apart of the game but day by day having more feathers plucked off  your wing

but is it possible to play the game and not lose ?

to be battered by money , distracted by the media , can one still discover clues ?

Well I walk the path where i'm told I may get lost in the dark

in hopes that I can show and round up all in Noah's ark

The good lives in hut 

The rich lives in a mansion

we work hard everyday but can't get a cut

they betray , lie, and all there wrong doings lead to an expansion

what can you possibly do when you're unable too see

also frightened because those who do take actions end up with an non payable fee ?

Just be aware. 

Though ignorance is bliss.

It affects you so you should care

Acting like it doesn't is amiss 

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Human and pain

We are on and off like a light switch
and change like the season
one man made
and one if not god then  according to man a  scientific reason

Relationship could be labeled as a phase
that sometimes we past
but some can't move forward afraid of the words that will be said last

Fear
lonesome
search
security

is when you decide to confide in another
thought of fear controls you
that even when bad is done, to react to it sometimes you won't bother

Let the cause slide even though it produced a negative effect
People are usually  aware of the results
but still those who do wrong they refuse to  reject

So it's assumed that people like to be hurt
and watching those stay in a verbal or physical abusive relationship
tends to reassert

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Still don't know

and he's not trying to ether

her emotions never show

But he just can't leave her

Her eyes are empty never whole

as if life has been drawn 

 not in touch with her soul

walks this world but has been gone

This is sex not love 

is what he thinks at night

The act always occurs in the dark

like she doesn't want to be seen in the light

what is it that she fears

he's been there from the start

he doesn't pay attention to the gossip he hears

but there was a  rumor about her broken heart

when did that event take place

he thinks I've done no such thing

then he remembers the look on her face

when she first noticed his ring

Remembers telling her he loves her not

making promises that his marriage will cease 

said it only because he got caught

he thought in situations we make promises to those to put them at ease

They were supposed to meet but received a text  explaining that from his hands she's fled

An hour passed

the cops called her only contact in her phone saying they found her dead

What's the point of this
Just a thought that turned into a visual literary showing
Someone finding pain in what you may feel is bliss

and how often our desires destroys our conscience
our morals slip away
then we become   inhumane for temporary nonsense

                                                                                                                                                         
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What if All your Possessions were Taken away From you
Would you Stop being Materialistic
 open Your eyes To a New path And continue
or is The situation Not simplistic

The object is only worth as much as you choose to value
like Jenny got a ring and loves it more then Matthew
objects get more attention then saying something nice so now who bothers
We love the object more then ourselves and others


And why do we choose to give materialism such power
do possessions define who he or she might be
like buying a rose as opposed to  planting your own flower
materialism blocks spiritual growth but one cannot see

4 cars, 2 houses, 4 gold necklaces , and A dog
has led a man astray
and now walks in the grey fog
but not considered   guilty those are just results from doing his job



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Train of thoughts

The art within

and within art is sin
Bible says it's because of Adam and Eve
sometimes I wonder if I were offered the fruit would I take or it leave

Sometimes I wonder why it's hard to do right
how we fade and blend with the shadows when we were birthed in the light
Sometimes I create theories in hopes someone can prove them wrong
Sometimes Hope makes the path seem short when in reality it's long

Sometimes we purposely convince ourselves were weak when were strong
Pity and dwell on the pass stay in a mood and pick the perfect sad song
That's us allowing ourselves to be controlled by our emotions
emotion aren't innate were a sea and if we want waves we put them in motion

Sometimes I weigh
the balance of evil and good
to see which side I'm leaning towards so that I could stray
if only I actually could

what do the scientist mean we can't access all of our brain
then I wonder who's the traffic cop up there that keeps all the cells in their lane

Sometimes there are times when I feel soulless
wondering what could replenish my soul and bring back the wholeness
possibly my existence when I complete my purpose

Sometimes I wonder what was written
and why I've yet to read
and where the book lays and if it's been hidden from me

Just a train of thought
I hate what I think
and though proven it can be ignored I feel like it still can't be fought








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