My soul is blues and my mind is jazzed.

                                                                                                                                                     

                                                                                                                                                           B.W

I don't believe in love
Yet I repeat the words to him
Monogamy is unnatural
but for you my bird house will remain sacred , no more seeds to attract the birds in

Sin is the cigarette you don't want to smoke
But it's an addiction we can't escape and we all have taken a toke

I don't know where i'm going with this
or where this is going with me
but I see me going
but where i'm going I don't see

I watched a movie that said life is like walking in the rain
Grab an umbrella or just get wet
But God is in  the rain
so I leave my skin bare for something that is destined but I don't expect

I never know how to end something that is just beginning
or why what is beginning must end
like our lives
from harsh diseases, and other physiological issues we continuously have to fend

But I keep going ..and going.

Not everyone is offered a ripe a fruit.

Free of Conscience

From where I sit I believe I can see afar
Identify wise men faces with each star
The one's words that I choose to follow
As I walk down this path and my heart becomes more hollow

My body's losing it's senses
Becoming more weak as it passes through pass, present and future tenses
My list is starting to shorten
No goals on the paper to be accomplished
as if my life is becoming unimportant

I'm starting to lose my way
as if I was heading in a certain direction
as I face trials while being lost
i'm noticing my imperfections

I'm starting to recollect
what my soul already knew
ask the right questions and you'd see you have the answer
but that knowledge is only known to few

I left a piece of candy on the path every step of the way
I go and retrace my tracks and reflect on each moment everyday
Like why was this said ? Why was this done ?
Unnecessary stress I cause for myself by dwelling in the darkness under the sun

I'm Just trying to cultivate my conscience
instead of my conscience creating me
beware of  being guilt tripped
or to be honest from my conscience sometimes I want to be free

I just feel lost
I always feel bad
about yesterday , today , the day after
no promises of signs that show a happily ever after

I want to be free
Free from what proves i'm human

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Soulless Chaos

Not all the flowers in the garden will bloom
As you walk in this life you'll soon come to see that you won't be fed by the spoon
Things that come easy Will be easily gone
Just remember that when desire  tempts you to do wrong

The sun is shining because the moon is elsewhere
Brave individuals but we all have moments of fear
but then there's a choice to be made
To fight the war against yourself or choose to evade
The problems on problems ,one after another
shot on a Monday, used Tuesday to recover
Police brutality
battered now bruised
oops once again they forgot to put the truth  on the news

X said blood must be shed for a revolution
Pointless deaths in the projects or underdeveloped countries seems to be the solution
It doesn't seem just
So Protest ,  write letters, donate are  all factors that are a must

They say were all one
Then how did we get divided
Expect those who are mistreated to bow down or run
They have pride despite the fact that it might cost them they're lives they went ahead and rioted
So the swat team sparks fireworks, or uses to tear gas and had them  quieted .

All the violence, From wanting power, To have money, To have control
Oh where are your souls ?
When did you become soulless ?
Those with no Souls cause Chaos

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Blood is spilled
Lies are told
Head is filled
with false information that is sold
through the news

What of the truth

Gullible generation
Avaricious individuals
 Media, Military, corporations and Government
the foundation of our great Nation

All to control

I pray our souls are freed
How many must we lose
How much more will have to bleed
To survive in this world must we become immune to abuse

When will everyone see the truth

Man who wants to be in power
Must  be dominant over others
Societies are conditioned
So that individuals are disciplined.
All done through institutions
but you can't see the truth
because you do as your told and rewarded as good students

Reality

I'm glad you have no place in my puzzle

 not the missing piece to make it complete

write it to make my  approach more subtle

because in person I fear i'd be to bleak

They say forgive and forget

A saying I Chose to ignore and reject

 your actions would be  repeated 

then where's the lesson that you've learned 

morals that you needed 

after many bridges have been burned

now someone else will have their turn

And I wasn't that someone else

so I went on to someone else

before committing to another 

should have been comfortable with yourself

but we jumped  before we knew the distance of the fall 

The same person I jumped for is the same person who I always ignore when they call

There was a feeling at the beginning when I chose to go left instead of right

Just wanted to give it a  chance and give the relationship all of my might 

When I was with you The sun was settled but my days were dark

But started seeing rainbows and gold in my pot when we were apart

It just wasn't meant to be 

My soul doesn't have a mate

Infatuation doesn't allow your eyes to see

but gives you illusions of why you think this is fate

But a candle doesn't always stay lit

You're flowers will eventually die

We just need to accept reality

don't be a slave to your emotions , understand and don't cry. 

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Journey

I Awoke 18 years  ago

Since then I've been waking life

My own policy maker and doer 

of what I believe is wrong and right

Trying to draw a self with random colors

Not caring if they match 

I don't want to be compared to others

Rather be singled out from the batch

Always trying to improve
Learning from mistakes that were made  from the pass I always move
Forward never go backwards
Careful decision maker despite the uncertainty of what happens afterwards

If only I can see  ahead of what omniscient chooses to show
If life is pages in a book why hasn't anyone kindly offered to  foreshadow
I just hope I accomplish  all of  my goals
Confession to the sky  I fear the thought of the day when he chooses what's right stays  and what's wrong goes

Especially if I make an  impact on the way citizens live
Or I acquired more knowledge on how I can give
to those that are in need
I pray to Jireh that he lends more time so I can cook up justice and feed

Angel descended from the heavens
With silly thoughts of Utopia
In this world hope doesn't win you lucky sevens
What it creates is false phobias

But we pray
That as we walk in the darkness
our souls illuminate

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All you need

Violence

Money

Moment of silence

For the bees that attempted to resist the honey

Moment of silence for those who tried to  make a difference

and death is what was returned

Government and institutions causing hindrance

children what have you really learned ?

Moment of silence 

due to the fact that soon we will be silenced

Democracy's a fraud the government believes they know best 

they'll be our guidance

to accomplish there own interest

Were already dead

Robots, Must be the case

we always do what is said

How does one come back to life

on earth where no one is living

soulless bodies

on their knees waiting to be given

I'd say take back
but the majority believes

All you need
religion
Laws
Continuously restraining
or pointing out flaws

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The devil's calling again
Answer or ignore
My soul has been locked
Said he'll give  Knowledge of the key that opens up the door

Filled with desire
Somewhat passionate
To acquire
it all
So when thrown a ball
believe i'm catching it

Won't let an opportunity ever pass me by
Remember the first time My debit card declined in public I wanted to cry
That moment there will never reoccur
A History that won't repeat and the pages of the book have been burned just to be sure

I Haven't been inspired
I don't idolize
Self driven to get what is required
No negotiating when All effort from my body and mind was used I refuse to compromise

Because it's my thought
that triggered my body's movement
Creativity is not taught
Therefore within an institution there is no need for me to be a student

I got sidetracked
I couldn't track the field
So I cross countried
Through the long distance running
A lot was revealed

Not to take the short cut
because your success will be cut short
not everyone strikes and makes the putt
and when you miss after cheating to whom but yourself will you retort ?

What are the chances of me doing the opposite of what I want
A habit was developed along came the passion Now the outcome of what I practice is what I tend to flaunt
Not saying that i'm conceited
But if you drew your art with the colors of your choice and got a perfect picture and nobody believed it
Could actually occur
when doubted sometimes my drawings got messed up I would color outside of the lines everything became a blur

But you erase your mistakes
Get a new blank sheet
Forget about the stakes
wear the shoes that are meant to be on your feet

Once you understand that everything that needs to be accomplished can only be done alone is when you've received your cue
The lines you read on the stage for the part that you thought you couldn't play worked out as if It was just meant for you
Remember you create yourself
To become the best you can be it's not necessary to receive any help

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