The messages that are misinterpreted and ridiculed are the ones everyone is in denial about

The butterfly that escaped the spider's web - one piece

That's just reality.

I respect her. As she sat on my bed and read the poetry of a boy that's in our class. She read it in a comedic way. She sought to humiliate him , she didn't even understand what he was writing about. She even mentioned that she had already told her other friends about this. They described him as weird and such. I sat there and corrected her on one of his poems , informing her that's not what he meant. She didn't care. I didn't join making a mockery of him and that I applauded myself for , but I didn't defend him. Instead I attempted to escape it by jokingly saying that she secretly adores him and just refuses to admit it. She obviously denied. As I sat there listening to her I wondered what exactly is so wrong with expressing yourself and calling it poetry ? Why is  that something people find humiliating or lame ? Why is something that is a form of art so unpopular to this new age ? I didn't understand. I thought well well what if she knew that very thing ( poetry ) is what I myself write Every night. Poetry is what helps me express what I wouldn't usually say out loud. Its my personal therapeutic savior from all of this bullshit that exist nowadays. My feelings , thoughts, beliefs everything put into words in a rhymethic form that reminds me of who I am as an individual and separates from everyone else. I could care less about opinions because it isnt written for an opinion it's written for stability, realization, and beauty that is within. What if she knew all that ? Would she then too insult me , or tell others about me ? I wonder. Then again maybe you have to look deeper into the situation. She could admire it, but others judgments has altered her own opinion. Which is sad but that is the sick reality of most people my age these days. If its not popular kill it, if everyone else is doing it praise it. Sucks.

The uncertainty is what makes life so painful and beautiful at the same time.

I seriously believe if a you take from a man you are going to end up owing him a lot more then you expected. Get it on your own. Don't be dependent. That's why women fought for rights.

Mind Anxiety

I'm feeling slightly drowsy. 

My head is overcrowded with unwanted fans

unneeded thoughts

that just constantly spam 

and have a temper when I ignore 

refuse to answer

but they keep knocking on my door

I might have overdose on this medicine

Supposed to be healthy to reflect

but it's just toxins that were let in 

Was already aware of when I wronged 

Pinged it at the moment don't need it ponged 

Losing sleep

Losing weight

Stay in the sea 

don't swim towards the bait

pain is  worth the pleasure you receive when you wait

Apparently

The wise man said those words 

as he approached the fruit daringly

My head continues to ache

It's true you learn more about yourself when at the lowest

because different parts of you begin to wake

Mind anxiety

seek the true pleasure that is natural and be content

but your desires don't leave they wait quietly

Substitution 

or am in denial and decided to suppress

Mind anxiety always catches back up

when I leave my theories at home

and i'm in public undressed

Art by : Claudia Fuenzalida Johns

                             
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The Nun who left

You'd be a liar if you said you've never been tempted. That thoughts that man labeled immoral have never crossed your mind. The same man that despises these desires created them. The same nun who has chosen to live her life according to the bible has dreamt of the very sins she ought not to commit. Oh but she longs for what she is taught to resist. She wonders sometimes if she is missing anything in this life. Then quickly punishes herself , for to exist means to be good and then to not is to enter God's kingdom. Yet she  thinks to herself, God knew we would sin, which is why asking for forgiveness exist , is it not ? Then can I not just bite but a piece off the fruit off ? I've never wronged anyone , not physically or emotionally. Nor would I want to despite what has been done to me. The nun looks up , my journey has not been traveled. I haven't even started. I've never left the church. Every aspect of my life exist within the church. I'm so very thankful for what the church has done for me , but something is missing. I don't want to die in the church father. I no longer want to live in the church father. What have I achieved in the church ? I pray, I eat, attend services, and repeat. There's more to life , and who's to say that what is more to life must be considered sinful ? Fear overcomes the nun. She slowly walks backwards. These thoughts ..are they evil ? Will I still go to heaven ? If another were to hear oh how they would damn me. You've never judged me. You've always loved me. Would you follow me ? Let me see beyond these doors and still accept me. I should leave. Without a word. They would not understand. They live this life not out of love but for a reward. Who's worst ? The atheist who's become so due to this religion but acts kindly out of love and is good , or the religious whom claims to follow in your steps but does wrong though they are aware ? To be good because it is right is what I believe. Sickening that some are entrapped due to wanting to remain alive but are not living. I confess as I undress, I am the nun who will leave the church. Still live by my God but no religion. The nun lived in the church with fear and left feeling empowered. Blinded and left with sight.

I just want to create something that I think is beautiful and not what society has labeled beauty to be.

Crying for the U.S because you're next president will probably be shittttttt and the  next,

Whoever we believe is in charge is not on charge. Tell us to vote for someone who makes claims yet isn't allowed to act upon them without permission and is usually denied. Ya thank you so much for democracy.

Does having faith and believing there's a solution for every problem that comes along discourage emotions that would usually be present ?

Don't be so concerned with other's lives when they could not care less about yours.

See it for yourself

You should approach life with caution, but at the same time playing it safe makes you blind to so many opportunities and the real purpose of living. The journey that we all set on , can only be properly enjoyed when guided by your own choices. Living life according to the way you want it to be rather then what others want for you is important. You will always encounter problems along the way, some fear those problems and want to avoid it. Everything that occurs in life is A learning experience that shapes you and shows the beauty within yourself. It helps you grow. Avoiding problems would make more sense and listening to those who think they have the answers may seem smart  but they themselves are still as lost as you are. Everyone is on the same page regardless of the amount of money, or career, or anything else that many may think define them or think has made their life complete. There are countless of guides to happiness, and multiple theories. That's great to use sometimes to better yourself and avoid certain bad characteristics , karma, ect. It's all lovely but no man should live according to a book made by another man. You have free will for a reason why give it away just because of fear ? Your journey is not supposed to be perfect , but when you keep moving , aging and actually reflect on all the events that have occurred in your life you find a certain beauty. The beauty is not only in accomplishments, but failure. I've noticed there's no beauty in structure. Structure, and order lacks beauty compared to a a forest filled with different colors. The forest that's filled with colors that represent happiness, and sadness. Dead plants, blooming flowers, full grown flowers, mud, beautiful streams, cut down trees, huge trees. I'm just attempting to give a detailed visualization of this forest that's filled with misery and bliss at the same time but is still a masterpiece of art when you look at it from a far. It tells a wonderful story. The story is based off of experience. The forest was created by your personal experiences that in the end is filled with so much color and beauty. You should seek everything for yourself. Don't completely remove theoretical knowledge, but remember that sensual experience is required in this life that we live. Reason cannot always guide you to happiness. Have a balance of both. I just feel a lot have forgotten that. The answer was always better received when foound not given.

See for yourself

Can't believe in other parts of the world people are still being beheaded.

You think twice because  the actions happens once

haven't those who don't know anything said enough

Best relationship advice : Don't tell anyone about your relationship.

ISIS Vs Climate Change - Which Kills More? Russell Brand The Trews (E270)

Hansen Unplugged: Signs of change

I really don't care. I only put on clothes because I know when I leave my room it is not socially accepted to be nude.

Fiction

Fiction is needed because it represents what we ideally want to be like and want in life.
It's this sense of hope with morals that you learn along the way as you flip through each page.

You never know the extreme lengths someone will go through to get back at you, so it's best not to do any wrong towards anyone. I just learned that.

Not going to bed hungry but going to bed without other things.

You are beyond disgusting if you abuse animals for the fun of it.

Anime taught me how to cry again.

Embracing nudity as art rather then disgraceful,

I'm not deep, I just like art

At last , Love

I saw what you prayed for

and I saw what you will receive.

Because I work to be all that you ask for

so in love you continue to believe. 

Before any decision is made, I put myself in your shoes.

Despite that we are inherently fallible no mistake will cause me to lose. 

I've seen you cry and wish for death

after giving your heart and soul just to be left. 

I couldn't imagine dealing with such pain

so I became more understanding as into why you're always insecure and complain.

Sometimes I wonder if I am ready for this ride

When just yesterday I viewed emotions as weak and my feelings I always chose to hide

This journey that you and I now walk on together has taught me some valuable lessons

The lack of love and me denying it's existence turned out to be my biggest blessing. 

How odd that we ignore what we need 

So fixated on surviving in this world or our desires leading us to greed

I thank God that I can now see the light at the end of the cave and finally caved

Love kept us human in the world of evil, so  because of you I've been saved. 

My sky was starless and now there all I see

I always created art reflecting passionate emotion  and now my  masterpiece is what we'll be.

So I thank you for coming into my life

and I hope for you to stay

I'm so thankful that the melody to love 

are the keys I can finally play. 

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Thank you God